english

 next quarter my eng class gonna do this essay assignment that im actually lowkirkinely looking forward to. basically we have to write a 4-page review on a movie or book. bruh ive never had this typa assignment before im so exciteddd. i want to watch more movies this year so ts perfect too. i have an entire doc filled with media i want to watch sometime. maybe i can use this experience to watch media more critically :DD i hope my analysis skills improve too 

my name PMO

 i have the weirdest name ever 😭how did my family come up with all ts oh my goodness gracious bro. 100% chance no one in the world has the same full name as me; my middle name doesnt even come up if i google it. its suposed to be korean but it doesnt sound korean at all too lmao

anyway the thing that pmo about my name (first mostly) is that no one can pronounce it or remember it ever 😭😭😭🥀 when i went to summer college the counselors there were tryna memorize everyone's names right. from what i saw they mostly got it down quickly for everyone but i was suffering. literally weeks into the program this one counselor especially. he couldnt remember my name for the life of him. my roommate and i had to check out before and after dinner every day and several days in a row i had to remind him like dawg you literally know mee 😢 i told you my name an hour ago!! 

its not even cuz i dont have an american name bc my roommate doesnt have an american name either but ppl had no problem with her😭im just forgettable ig 

#1 most annoying and common thing is attendance in school. especially with substitutes. they are always asking multiple times if they said my name right like bro just move on PLEASE we're only meeting once 💀💀 right before winter break this one sub kept asking me how to say my name. and i have a quiet voice right. so i kept yelling (or trying to) across the room and everyone was starting to look at me bc she wouldn't stop asking GOUHDDDJDD 😭😭💀💀😭💀💀☠️😭💔💔

ive been online friends with people who cant say/spell my name for weeks or even years of knowing me. lol. it truly is a curse when you name your child something weird. nowadays ppl naming their kids something crazy like "rafferty" or "teghn" or "lylyt yvyh yryhl" (all real btw). i feel so bad for these kids theyre gonna suffer and get bullied 

learning / hobbies

learning new stuff is lowkirkenuinely so fun.. being self taught is kinda hard but i dont want to ask for lessons for multiple hobbies cuz itll be so expensive so i gotta persevere 😭

for some reason playing guitar feels 100x more intuitive than when i last tried. and im genuinely improving with minimal practice like one session i cant play the chord well even with sheet music but next time i try i can, without any sheet music 🤯🤯

also learning some dancing too cuz why not. ts also difficult cuz i need to develop specific muscles. but the other day i reached some sort of flow state bc of this one move and it genuinely felt like i was floating. i literally felt weightless it was so weird and cool 

how life feels when you stop doomscrolling and start learning stuff 🕊️☘️🌼🌞🌷

dream schools

 how do people have dream schools for college broughh. ive prob said this before but in 8th grade there were people like this girl who already knew what college she wanted to go to and she even wore the school-themed merch 😭😭how are people so dead set on their #1 pick !!

every college has pros and cons so i couldnt really pick my dream/#1 college tbh. i kinda just wanna go somewhere thats diverse, not too cold and has lots of things nearby cuz its so boring where i live 😪

joeversary

 happy ashita no joe anniversary as well 

ngl its very fitting that anj's anniversary falls on new years. it matches the theme of improvement and 'for tomorrow' etc. also i went boxing today in honor of anj 

Happy New Year 2026!

 Happy new year everyone!!! yayyy new year!!! i checked my goals for this year and i completed 5/8 which is pretty good! some i only improved a little but thats ok. this year i have a lot of different goals and i hope i complete most of them and become a better person :) im excited for 2026!!! 

i wanted to draw smth but
 i gave up halfway thru lol

please goudd let my 2026 feel like this 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏 please i need one good year and this would be the perfect year for a good one 

ngl this year was kinda... idk if i can say whether it was good or bad. there were a lot of bad times. and problems that are still persisting. but some good days too. i think most days were average. i mostly stopped using my daily journal so idk. since its the end of the year i can put those bad days behind me now ig.. anyway i have a good feeling about 2026 so girl whatever! 

Song OTD / NYE

 

Happy new year's eve everyone ... last day of 2025!! can you believe it! today's song otd is 'the lily' by gabriel olafs. i havent been listening to music as much tbh, but mostly classical nowadays. anyway, this song feels fitting for the end of a year and its gorgeous. gabriel said it's supposed to represent the different states in a journey through time. i also really like the piano version too (maybe more), its the first version of this song i listened to. it feels heavier and more grounded. i also like the ending more. but the og version sounds more complete and akin to the message imo