dying

this is a random topic but is anyone else comforted by the idea of su1cide 😭💔like whenever life feels too hard or i get hit with that overwhelming feeling of loneliness its just nice to think that theres always a way out if i really cant deal with it all anymore 💀idk 80% ill never do that but fantasizing about it is how i always coped whenever i felt hopeless and it really works😃

also i never really got people who are scared of death. i would be scared obviously if it was painful but otherwise i dont really care too much when ill die😭even if itll be soon. yeah theres a lot to live for but at the same time my life kinda pointless and empty so idk, idc that much. hope my mindset changes about this later on cuz rn im fr just a lonely & anxiety riddled person who goes to school and home most of the time😔trying to change that this year tho fingers crossed. bruhh if i dont improve at all this year im kms 

anyway honestly i really hope that once you die its just nothing a black void and you 100% cease to exist. no more worries or thoughts or anything. this would be the most peaceful and freeing option i could think of. but maybe being reincarnated as a tree or something would be cool 

(also i hate it but i dont know if ill get flagged/reported for saying certain words so censoring)

Animation oopsie

 I forgot to make one today. Tbh i'm already kinda busy and probably about to have no free time soon so i dont think imma do ts challenge every day anymore. im still gonna get to 100 days it just wont be every day posting 

j*b

 lowkey jealous of people in school who get jobs with their friends. i overhear multiple people talk about it,, friends who plan on working together or they invite their friend to their workplace and somehow get hired together

it would be way more fun/reassuring to work with a friend or someone you know 😓esp if its a boring and repetitive position. im gonna be so scared when i get a job bro😭💔talking to people and doing everything right and customers who will yell at you omfg.......

Day 10

All ts frames just for 1.8 seconds bruh SAVE ME 

fashion/individualism

 i saw this one video where a person was at the mall and pointed out how everyone is wearing the same exact clothes now. and its so true. the people in the video were wearing those mf ug slippers and sweats. everyone in my school dresses the same exact way. at least 80% of people in my school!!! the ug slippers. sweatpants (mostly) but also jeans. and the girls all wear the exact same type of black leggings 😭

this is basically
the school uniform atp

bruhh what happened to individuality in fashion. everyone is like clones of each other. i can literally only think of 2 people who dressed very outside the norm throughout my entire high school career 💀when i was in 9th grade there was this girl who dressed gothic, she wore this extravagant black dress every day, along with the typical makeup style and a lacy black parasol. and currently ik this one 9th grader who dresses in a sort of toned-down decora style. 

also speaking of clothes like this is kinda weird to me personally about dressing so casually at school. people also tend to wear pajamas a lot, its very normalized. i dont necessarily care if others do but i could never feel comfortable wearing literal pajama pants to school 💔even wearing sweatpants feels weird. idk if this is a hot take but jeans are basically the comfortable bottoms imo. as long as theyre not new/stiff i could wear jeans anywhere for any period of time.

anyway its ok if you want to dress more basic or comfortably but everyone is dressed the exact same way. there's literally no differences. its like a cult. tbh i cant talk much bc i dress pretty boring too even tho its not the ug/loungewar combo😭i cant wait to change up my style later when i live alone and have money tho

Day 9

Ayoo i finally reached flour sack exercises. ts choppy asf but whatever 😭

Day 8

didnt get to learn anything new today. working on animation for a school project i hate this vro 😭💔projects like this are genuinely so annoying. especially when we cant even work on them in class bc everything is banned!! also the pacing of ts pmo idk how to make separate clips different fps