i want to be like this old man

 

happy february everyone 

Grave of the Fireflies

 Guys I watched this movie late last night.. I've been wanting to see it for a while. My first Ghibli movie ever!! 

Everyone said this movie is absolutely devastating so I was interested... Even saying they could never watch the movie again. Based on that and the description I thought it would be akin to a manhwa I read before, The Horizon. With these comparisons in mind, GoF wasn't as dark and depressing as I expected it to be. I did cry though and it was definitely still tragic.

Basically there are 2 main characters, Seita, a 14 y/o boy, and his 4 y/o sister Setsuko. After their home is bombed they have to move to their aunt's house. However, she is very stingy and sort of impassive towards the two and treats them as burdens, so Seita makes the decision to leave with Setsuko. They make a home out of a cave. Seita has to steal and bargain to get enough food and the kids still end up malnourished and disease-ridden. Despite that there are happy moments sprinkled throughout the movie and the kids retain hope. Also I like how realistic everyone acts throughout the movie especially Setsuko and there's not really and black-and-white villains/heros (although you could argue the aunt and even Seita are sort of villains). 

The tragedy of Gof is not only the circumstances and after-effects of war but also the devastation of pridefulness and selfishness. Seita being too proud is the point of the movie the author wanted to make. Because of Seita being too proud, some things happen (can't say bc spoiler). It's basically implied/foreshadowed through the beginning of the movie tho. Also kinda related he reminded me a bit of Joe Yabuki during some scenes. Seita is proud because of his upbringing with Japan being so stubborn (?) and nationalistic and viewing going back on things as dishonorable (prob why he didn't go back to aunt's house despite starving). He couldn't even believe Japan would surrender in the war when he got the news. But anyway I didn't really get the pridefulness aspect that much at first. It is shown through scenes, but my thinking was that Seita is literally a traumatized kid dealing with apathetic adults, death, destruction, and he's forced to take care of his sister. He isn't an adult and he's not mature enough to deal with everything and think things through carefully. Ofc he won't make the right decisions. 

Btw GoF is inspired by the author's life and makes the movie even more heart-wrenching. 

Apparently Nosaka felt guilty that he would eat food without sharing it to his sister while they were both starving and wrote Seita always giving food to Setsuko because he wished he would've acted that way. He also liked the ending of the movie because of Seita's fate compared to his. Ugh the ending of GoF made me cry the most. Not to be anj-brained but it gave me the same abrupt feeling as when I finished anj. Bro the ending scenes with Setsuko and the marble candy scene really stuck with me this movie is killing me... These poor kids.... 

I love the backgrounds in this movie though

rare happy moment </3333333333333

The rice field scenes were so nostalgic

Man I've been trying to watch more movies lately so this was nice tho. Yesterday (well technically 2 days ago now) I finally watched Fight Club. Might write a review on that idk. And before that I started "It's a Wonderful World" but I've yet to finish it. (It feels a little hard to watch a B&W movie.) I want to watch more Ghibli,, maybe My Neighbor Totoro bc I have a plush of Totoro lol. Princess Mononoke sounds interesting too. 

PPPIDWBAMG

 

Brooo episode 2 finally dropped... peak... also the acronym for this show is ridonkulous. also i wonder who aika's VA is her voice cuz is sooo peppy except for when she has to be a magical girl the disparity is funny 

also wondering when itll get fully animated 

no way

i finally got a 401k !!!

i feel like a real adult now 

i lobe guitar

 bruh guitar is so fun ngl. my fingers barely hurt anymore and i can memorize everything so easily for some reason. it was hard in the beginning but its very rewarding nowadays!!! i feel like im progressing pretty fast 

today i learned how to play 7 nation army. i know how to play 4 riffs now :DDD and im learning minor chords and stuff too. im looking forward to learning barre chords idk when itll come up yet. also i finally figured out how to play hammer chords holy gyatt 😭😭that was stumping me for a while. i cant wait to get an electric guitar so i can stop using my brother's acoustic ☠️

how i feel when i learn
anything new on guitar

also i need to memorize the notes on the fretboard so i can read sheet music & play songs i want and it looks so daunting

like broo what is this why are there a million notes in random orders why cant it be like piano or sum

weirdest dream ever

 ive been having a lot of crazy and weird dreams lately but i forget most of them. i just remember a snapshot cuz i dont write my dreams down as much as i used to lol

anyway today i had the craziest dream bruh. basically i was walking home from school down a hill in this city/town. and i saw ICE and random citizens crowding the sidewalk. i was scared i would get deported to korea or something 💀so i stopped and didnt really know what to do since this was the only path home. but i was still curious so i got a little closer. 

this one ICE dude was racist and yelling slurs at these 2 black people. one guy and one girl. i was close by so the guy grabbed me and started talking about (i cant remember exactly) but basically something about how im white and ICE wouldnt be racist to me because of that i think. but then ICE started yelling slurs at me too 💀💀and then he started sawing through the guys hand ??!?! and it was bleeding and then i got stabbed and then i cant remember anything else i think i woke up 

bro literally wtf was this dream 

Animation Day 12

 

infuriating little flour sack