who want to make labubu dubai chocolate smores for winter

 who want to make labubu dubai chocolate smores for winter

why am i genuinely an old man already

 bruh i got so many white hairs i mean i noticed this near the beginning of 2025 but it was like. 1 strand.

i literally got all the bad genes from my family im not even joking. i cant think of a single good thing i got other than my eye color. kms 😭

split ends

 does anyone else have a million split ends in their hair

i have so many and its bothered me ever since i realized i have split ends years ago 😂 ive been manually cutting them off, prob cut off hundreds of hair strands by now. im never doing anything to my hair again... im never getting a perm again... i just want long healthy hair 

some of the split ends in my hair were GNARLY bro literally 1 strand splitting off into 6+ pieces eughh 😭its reallyy satisfying to cut them off though

what the helly ?!?!?!?!?

 guess who took the sat today. this was the worst experience ever im not even exaggerating 😭😭💔💔

FIRST OF ALL!! for some reason my computer would NOT connect the the wifi no matter what. some nice person even tried to help me but it still wasnt working. so i was holding everyone back for at least 15 mins and everyone was looking at me holy ☹️😞 great way to start the day. so i ended up starting like an hour late along with 5 other people. there were so many problems not just connecting to wifi sighh.. but everything else was quick compared to that. 

bro reading and writing module 2 was genuinely insane. it was like taking a damn science test not a reading test 😭😭I DO NOT CARE ABOUT THE VEINS ON A LEAF OR THE SPECIES ON SOME 40 MILLION YEAR OLD ISLAND OR WHAT DEPTH SHELLS UNDER THE SEA HATCH!! omG half the questions and passages were genuinely so dense and long that i had to guess on like 7 of them cuz i ran out of time. im so maddd cuz r&w is the only thing im good at and ik i couldve done so much better ughh but there was no time and some questions really were ridiculous. im not tweaking out either hundreds of people had the same experience even tutors!!! 

math wasnt good either but then again im not particularly good at math so i cant really tell anything 😭 but lots of people said math was also unusually hard. 

also i was sitting right in front of the proctors desk bc i had to charge my borrowed laptop and this was the worst decision ever 😭everything was good for the first module! then she started constantly drinking water loudly and eating all kinds of food wtf. this lasted all the way until the last module was halfway over btw. think i have some sort of misophonia because the chewing, gulping, and mouth noises she was making genuinely infuriated me and it was all i could focus on💀and there was also a lively cheerleading team practicing outside our classroom. so i couldnt concentrate at all 💔💔💔proctors eating/drinking during testing time should be illegal.

how i felt during that rw section.
during the whole experience really

shouldve taken the september sat rughhjgk everyone said that was really easy. ofc the next one has to be diabolical. i heard people say there were literally kids sobbing in the test room. you cant make ts up man 💀also the comments ppl are making about this sat are killing me theyre so funny to read. we all suffering together rn😍😍😍

well, looks like i have to go test-optional 😬 if i was majoring in art this would be maybe fine, but for other things... ok but everyone else seemed to struggle a lot for this sat so i hope theres a huge curve 😻

Song OTD

 

Today's song OTD is Sienna by The Marias! Ik this is supposed to be a sad song but I never saw it that way. I love how dreamy this song feels. The part at 2:25, there's something so romantic (?) about it sighhh. 

I guess not romantic exactly but there's something so inherently loving and wistful/yearnful about that part.. the ending of this song is sooo good with that abrupt cutoff too 

i really want to befriend older people

 ok first of all happy october i was gonna post yesterday but i accidentally fell asleep at like 9pm lol. theres only 2 months of the year left!!!!! how crazy. i feel like i should be getting a lot done this month ahhhh!!! need to delete my procrastination issues ong

anyway. i really wanna befriend someone older... like 60-80. even 30+ idc. maybe there will be a volunteering option where theres gonna be old people that i can do. man i just really want someone who can give me life advice and can be like a role model idk 😭😭i want to listen to all their life stories. i love listening to people talk!! and we can keep each other company 😁👍since a lot of older people are lonely. everyone lonely nowadays. 

Song OTD 9/30/2025

 

Today's song OTD is Inside Out by Duster. This is how I felt today lowk 😭