Day 2

 

Day 2 😭😭more balls 🤑i cant wait to figure ts program out. something is wrong with this animation but idk how to fix it cuz the program wont work right ?? like it wont delete the frames i want it to and stuff

Animation Day 1

I found out today that procreate dreams had an update. apparently its much better now. so im gonna try to properly learn animation yayy :-) im gonna try to animate every day for 100 days and post on my blog so i have an archive somewhere. so far its kinda hard becuase i need to learn the program and also my screen is cracked asf and keeps slowly spreading so its blocking some of the features i need to see 💀but the actual animation wasnt hard.

 also ts animation thing kinda perfect rn cuz i basically lost all motivation to draw for some reason 😭literally the last time i took drawing seriously was for my art portfolio sigh and now idc about art that much. kinda ironic bc after i finished my portfolio i was all hyped up to draw and improve lol and now.. what happened bro

not another time post!

 bruhhhuhhg omg im actually spending more time on hobbies and not doomscrolling as much nowadays. i thought doing hobbies would make time pass more slower?? thats what everyone says. ngl to me it feels just as fast as doomscrolling 💀😭noooo... at least im being more productive with my time. but it still feels like the day is going by so quickly. i dont even have time to do all the hobbies i'd really like to in a day. i have to stay up to 1am just to do like 70% of what i wanna do in a day 🥀🤒

also im looking to finally get a job. and this is gonna suck up even more of my time. but i need money..,, to fund hobbies and stuff i want to do... ughhh wish i could win a powerball or smth 

english

 next quarter my eng class gonna do this essay assignment that im actually lowkirkinely looking forward to. basically we have to write a 4-page review on a movie or book. bruh ive never had this typa assignment before im so exciteddd. i want to watch more movies this year so ts perfect too. i have an entire doc filled with media i want to watch sometime. maybe i can use this experience to watch media more critically :DD i hope my analysis skills improve too 

my name PMO

 i have the weirdest name ever 😭how did my family come up with all ts oh my goodness gracious bro. 100% chance no one in the world has the same full name as me; my middle name doesnt even come up if i google it. its suposed to be korean but it doesnt sound korean at all too lmao

anyway the thing that pmo about my name (first mostly) is that no one can pronounce it or remember it ever 😭😭😭🥀 when i went to summer college the counselors there were tryna memorize everyone's names right. from what i saw they mostly got it down quickly for everyone but i was suffering. literally weeks into the program this one counselor especially. he couldnt remember my name for the life of him. my roommate and i had to check out before and after dinner every day and several days in a row i had to remind him like dawg you literally know mee 😢 i told you my name an hour ago!! 

its not even cuz i dont have an american name bc my roommate doesnt have an american name either but ppl had no problem with her😭im just forgettable ig 

#1 most annoying and common thing is attendance in school. especially with substitutes. they are always asking multiple times if they said my name right like bro just move on PLEASE we're only meeting once 💀💀 right before winter break this one sub kept asking me how to say my name. and i have a quiet voice right. so i kept yelling (or trying to) across the room and everyone was starting to look at me bc she wouldn't stop asking GOUHDDDJDD 😭😭💀💀😭💀💀☠️😭💔💔

ive been online friends with people who cant say/spell my name for weeks or even years of knowing me. lol. it truly is a curse when you name your child something weird. nowadays ppl naming their kids something crazy like "rafferty" or "teghn" or "lylyt yvyh yryhl" (all real btw). i feel so bad for these kids theyre gonna suffer and get bullied 

learning / hobbies

learning new stuff is lowkirkenuinely so fun.. being self taught is kinda hard but i dont want to ask for lessons for multiple hobbies cuz itll be so expensive so i gotta persevere 😭

for some reason playing guitar feels 100x more intuitive than when i last tried. and im genuinely improving with minimal practice like one session i cant play the chord well even with sheet music but next time i try i can, without any sheet music 🤯🤯

also learning some dancing too cuz why not. ts also difficult cuz i need to develop specific muscles. but the other day i reached some sort of flow state bc of this one move and it genuinely felt like i was floating. i literally felt weightless it was so weird and cool 

how life feels when you stop doomscrolling and start learning stuff 🕊️☘️🌼🌞🌷

dream schools

 how do people have dream schools for college broughh. ive prob said this before but in 8th grade there were people like this girl who already knew what college she wanted to go to and she even wore the school-themed merch 😭😭how are people so dead set on their #1 pick !!

every college has pros and cons so i couldnt really pick my dream/#1 college tbh. i kinda just wanna go somewhere thats diverse, not too cold and has lots of things nearby cuz its so boring where i live 😪