Helpppr ☹️ school vent

Art school is killing me 😭😭 my arm and back hurt from drawing in uncomfortable environments 😭 I miss my old desk and chair man

Bruh the food here is so repetitive and most of it tastes mid to bad and is unhealthy 💔😔

My skin got worse since I got here and my eczema also came back on both arms and its so painful AHHHHHHH I'm gonna crash out. And I'm sick of the moldy dorms and showers 😭

Also need to draw so quickly to meet deadlines and its lowkey stressful idk what happened but I draw really slowly now 💀 only for lineart tho. 

The grind never stops.... 

I wonder how much worse going to college fr will be... imagine doing art and also having other classes and juggling grades and chores and living in a small dorm with a roommate for 4+ years AND being in debt omg. 

Fashun thoughts

Brahhh I really wish to be able to express myself through my appearance more 😭 or just look how I wish I looked. I wanna wear clothes from a variety of styles, seeing all the different kinds of things people wear online is sooo amazing fr. Also think it would be cool to try some styles once just for fun like goth or lolita or gyaru idk.

Unforch.. I'm poor and not confident so I can't 😭 Maybe when I'm an adult/move out from parents home... Who else has a parent that never really let you pick your own clothes 💔💔 so u just wear whatever and don't even know what you want anymore cuz u never got the chance to choose what you liked 

Omg also I think it would be really fun to do a cosplay with a group of friends. And wearing fun/vibrant makeup styles looks cool too. Alsoo I really want to cut/dye my hair different colors but I'm also tryna grow it smh my head

Ok last thing I love people who are dedicated to a style fr 🫶🫶 (Or wearing a silly outfit like a lorax costume lol.) I just love seeing their fits/makeup. Its nice to see people who can express themselves like that unabashedly ourghhf. There are a few of those types of people in my school rn. Maybe cuz this is an art school lol 

This was my skibidi toilet. Back in the day

😭😭😭

 

drawing for reference

Was walking to dinner today and saw these two women they were both really tall and had long legs, they looked like models 😭 they were so pretty.. why are there so many divas here. Ngl I like people watching it's fun 

Ts is so random but has anyone else had to tell themselves repeatedly like "they won't hate me" to try to reassure yourself every time you wanted to text someone or am I just weird 😭😭 man I have such a complex about talking to ppl (esp first) I always think I'm bothering them 😭 

This problem used to be way worse for me since the beginning of the school year I just finished lol, got a bit better about it now tho 🥳👍 

SAD is the gift that keeps on giving. Smh my head 

Song OTD

 

Today's song OTD is The Star, To You 17 Years Old by NASTYONA! This is so bittersweet :( The beat/melody of this song is very comforting and familiar. 

bro how are other people able to be so free and emote and stuff 💔 like doing silly voices/faces, voice inflection, etc. just being able to express themselves in a variety of ways. i feel like some sort of robot that's trying to blend in with everyone but failing miserably 😭 idk. wish i could do the same but im so monotonous and timid in my actions and voice even when im trying not to be 💀😭 i probably come off as so cold and boring to others 🫩 

Kinda want to do this but i dont have followers.. 🥀🥀