childhood crushes..

 ok well tbh i cant really even do this because thing because,, ive never actually had childhood crushes before. 💀 can never relate when ppl talk abt this. omg i hate when people at school ask me who my crush is or if i have a crush on so-and-so what am i even supposed to say... anyway idk how everyone has all these childhood crushes, why did i never experience that :((

like youve gotta be kidding me. maybe theres just something wrong with me idk. honestly as a child whenever i watched movies i thought romance like kissing scenes were the grossest thing in the world. for example i remember watching aladdin in some sort of class and being so disgusted by the kiss scene. now though, idm some romance stuff that much anymore since ive been exposed to it a lot. 

ok but for real people, ive only had 1 crush in my entire life, in kindergarten bruh. i dont even really remember having a crush on them but i guess i did 😭im told it probably wasnt even a real crush cuz i was so young.

i dont really understand how everyone had all these crushes on characters and celebrities and whatnot. what does a crush even feel like anyways. i can never tell if it is or not?? there are characters i adore but i couldnt say i have/had a crush on them.