this song

 

brah this song kept playing on youtube videos and now its stuck in my head 😭 idk if i hate it or not.. "haii! nani ga suki? chokominto yori mo a-na-ta" keeps repeating in my mind omggf

Song OTD

 

Today's song OTD is Ladyfingers by Herb Alpert! Why is it so hard to find light and refreshing songs like this

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Today's song OTD is Falling Asleep Under the Starts by why this ? This song is so bouncy and light and the piano is really nice! Sounds kinda jazzy too which I love. Ending is great too but it cuts off kinda weird 😭 Sounds too sudden. Discovered this song because of this YTer ggg. and I love their playlists 😍 Really good for doing homework. I'm such a sucker for the cafe aesthetic in their thumbnails too 

random features i really like ☺️

1. pores, especially larger pores i dont think they look ugly. they add character to your face and look interesting ngl. i remember in 4th grade there was this girl i was kinda friends with. she had visible pores and i thought they were soo beautiful i really admired them and wanted pores just like hers 😭

2. i think monolids are really underrated. so many people feel pressured to get surgery for double eyelids especially in east asia💔 double eyelids arent the only pretty eye shape 😭 i think having monolids/epicanthal folds make your eyes pop out more and look more 3 dimensional. one of, if not my favorite eyes shapes fr. also idk what its called but i noticed in some east asian eyes there is this triangle-shaped part of skin at outer corner. its a little pinker and kinda shimmers and catches the light in a really beautiful way. obsessed with this feature its sooo striking and gorgeous i love it 😩i love eyes so much best feature of all time 

3. broad shoulders, women always hating on their broad shoulders but i think it can look really elegant/graceful and strong. having broader shoulders doesnt immediately make you look masculine!! you can still look pretty and feminine! 

like this is peak fr 

4. omg bruh i forgot to add this i knew i was missing something 💔 but i like women with prominent side burns or like the baby hair on the back of the neck. idk why people dont like them they look good 😭

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Today's song OTD is Lovely Day by Bill Withers! Happy music happy life 

 

This is peak Danpei cosplay.. I love how the teeth are just paper glued on 💀 Singing is good too

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Today's song OTD is One Day by Omoinotake! This song is so painful ngl. When is "someday"? 💔

why do i have the most horrific dreams ever :(((

like hey no i dont want to dream about constantly being chased and hiding and always being on edge and waking up with my heart racing. i dont want to dream about my family members being brutally killed and screaming my heart out while sobbing bruh. i cant watch even a slightly gore-y scene irl man why 😭😭 thanks anxiety for making my sleep miserable too 💔 some of my dreams are genuinely so disturbing. i can literally remember only 1 peaceful dream ive had in my life .. like a true peaceful dream no drama/real plot or evil people just nature and warm sunlight and cats 💔💔

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Today's song OTD is Something's Wrong with the Morning by Margo! Idk why the beginning sounded kinda French to me. I listened to this a long time ago but don't even remember ToT It's fun to look back at old songs tho 

RAHH I FINISHED WANIKANI!!!

Guys I lied last time when I said I wasn't gonna finish WK... couldn't resist and bought 1 more month so I could complete it. I reached level 60 5 days ago but finally finished learning all my vocab and stuff today. Man it's so weird... I'm never gonna learn any new lessons from that app ever again. I'm so glad I won't have to do over 400+ reviews everyday now. Overall it was really fun and addicting and I learned a lot easily 😍 I probably spent at least 400 hours on this thing. Also for the amount I paid to use it I feel like they should lock the app at the level you're at when the subscription expires instead of locking you at lvl 3😭Or give it for free for lvl 60 users smh my head. So that you can still practice kanji/vocab. Anyway I'm gonna miss WaniKani ngl. I was so consistent with it. Truly amazing. 

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Today's song OTD is 愛して愛して愛して (Love me, Love me, Love me) covered by Ado! How can her voice sound so angelic and so powerful at the same time 😭 I love the screaming I love songs where women scream fr. Loveee the vocal growl/fry sm. Also it's insane how her live sounds so much better than the studio version. Sooo peakkk this is my repeat song rn. 

did a gratitude journal for 3 weeks

Decided to start a gratitude journal cuz apparently it’s really good for you and for happiness y'know. So I finally finished yesterday yayy and it kinda worked I think. Didn't get life changing results but it helped. It made me feel less annoyed at things and enjoy doing stuff I hated more and be slightly happier. I think it also helped with anxiety a little and I became slightly more social. It also helped me appreciate things more. Cuz even if I had a bad day I could still look back and find a few things I was grateful for, and that made the day seem less bad. Idk if I'll continue doing this maybe 3 more weeks to see if it improves my mental health any further 

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Today's song OTD is Tell Me by FIFTY FIFTY! Listening to my old liked songs again. Happy music happy life 👍This song feels like a montage of nice memories with friends 

 Does anyone else think it's too late for them 😭 like there's suddenly so many things I wanna do/learn but idk I feel like I'm starting too late. Which is kinda crazy bc I'm not even an adult yet. But lots of people that become good at something and do their passion professionally start so early like professional figure skaters start at 4 years old and if you start too late you can never realize your full potential. Wish I could restart my life sometimes 💔 I still got time but I'll never get my wasted years back 😭

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Today's song OTD is A Quick One Before the Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut

anj

had a dream about anj the other day..... i was looking on this website and there was a list of most popular manga. and anj was in the #1 spot. also there were like 5 official english translation books and i was so excited & wanted to read them 😂 dont remember the rest of the dream.. i should start writing my dreams down again so my memory gets better. also whenever i have an anj-related dream its so random/weird for some reason.

also since we're on the topic i just found out that all of 尾藤イサオ's anj songs got removed from spotify 😭😭😭💔💔💔 omg NOOOOO why does this always happen man. now i have to scour the internet to find these songs again. kms. 

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Today's song OTD is くちづけ (Kiss) by BUCK-TICK! Been obsessed with this song. The part at 2:07 insane so good so catchy 

Shamisen

 

Shamisen is so cool... I wanna learn how to play it.... 

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Today's song OTD is 流星 by MUCC! This song sounds like something you'd listen to right before you die.

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Today's song OTD is そなちね (Sonatine) by Tempalay. Goud that intro is so funky and cool. It's bizarreness draws you in. And this song is very nostalgic and light/playful. It has an undercurrent of heaviness/melancholy too. Feels like the fleetingness of youth. Also that MV is crazy I don't usually care abt watching the MVs but this one had me hooked. It's actually really depressing and surreal. 

I love media that challenges my beliefs

 I think my favorite media are the ones that challenged my beliefs in some way…. I love seeing things from another person's perspective, experiencing their passion and emotions anew for whatever topic through their eyes. I love being inspired by such things and being able to look at something in a new light and with a more open mind. :D

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Today's song OTD is YOU & IDOL by Soutaiseiriron! This song sounds simple yet so wistful and full of yearning. Like someone who's trying to be happy after experiencing heartbreak but can't fully contain their sorrow.

did i just cure my artblock

 Bro istg literally cant draw anything on digital anymore.... its not like i dont have art ideas either i just cant draw....... So i tried drawing on traditional and suddenly i can kinda draw again 😭 ngl missed traditional art... its so fun. Actually maybe this happened bc i stopped drawing in sketchbooks. I can never give up paper and pencil 💥

tried drawing with no sketch too
its hard

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Today's song OTD is Mexican Dream by Piero Piccioni! So calming... so tranquil.. this song is like the fleeting beauty of sun rays coming through a forest canopy 

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Today's song OTD is みずいろの雨 (Light Blue Rain) by Junko Yagami! Oughh I love Junko's voice in this song,,. it's so beautiful. And I don't really notice instruments that much tbh but I love all of them in this song. I especially love that bass guitar(?) solo raghhh. This song is so groovy, smooth, and with a hint of yearning too. Absolute peak. 
 

Yayyy 😄 grammar

 I finally bought a grammar book for Japanese!! Feel like I only stay consistent to a resource if I spend money on it 💀 Idk or the free options just aren't my style </3. But now I can finally study...... the most important part of language learning 😭😭 I'm so excited to be able to understand sentences and not guess based off kanji lolll. Also love the smell of a fresh new book.. simply amazing. 

me fr except i like learning kanji :D (most of
the time)

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Happy May everyone! Can you believe we're almost halfway through 2025 🤯 Today's song OTD is Honey Vanity by Közi! I'm obsessed with the rhythm of his voice!! This song is so satisfying to listen to!! The ending is so ethereal too, absolutely peak song. I didn't know Közi could cook like this. Need to listen to more of his solo work....

Saint Young Men

 Started an anime 🤯everyone always telling me to watch anime to get better at Japanese ok. I've been wanting to watch Saint Young Men anyway. It looks like such a cute and funny show ☺️ Plus I've never seen this concept before esp in an anime.. Jesus and Buddha.. crazy... I just need something lighthearted after WLGYT. Only watched 1 ep cuz I got no time but it seems pretty entertaining.