sitting alone

 idk why everyone hates sitting alone (like during lunch at school) so much. its not too horrible and you get used to it. ive never thought anyone was a loser for sitting alone before and most people probably dont care. plus its nice downtime to chill without interruptions and you can decompress and do something like read while eating ☺️

bro im so glad ebooks exist cuz they making reading while eating so much easier. speaking of books, something that makes me happy to see in school is underclassmen/classmates reading physical books. cuz reading for fun is a rapidly declining hobby so its nice to see people reading during class, lunch, on the bus, etc!! wish i would read as voraciously as i used to again... like i would read an entire novel in one night without breaks. go through a book a day n stuff. dont do that often anymore. need to become obsessed with reading again. this is all social media's fault 😭

anyway i digress.. back to lunch. dont mind sitting alone but if i had to sit in the main cafeteria and not in the smaller tables outside think id feel more self-conscious about eating alone. esp if i was alone at a big table 💀 and if everyone but me had someone to sit with. but at my school there are a couple other people who sit alone too. its not that bad overall tho... maybe.. only embarrassing sometimes. omg one time last year i couldnt get a table fast enough so i had to sit on the floor next to the library, and next to another group of kids having lunch. and then this security person randomly walked over and told us we couldnt eat there so i didnt get the chance to finish eating lunch that day and just stood against a wall the rest of the time 😭ok wait suddenly remembering more awkward lunch times im understanding the hate for this more now.

bruh also my mom was shocked when i told her i always sat alone cuz shes never had to do that before when she was in school 😭💔imagine having that many friends 

buttt overall its still enjoyable to sit alone most of the time. lowkey made me more productive too thats the only bonus of being lonely

also its harder for me to finish lunch when i eat with someone (slow eater lore </3). and i dont like eating in front of people. actually i hated eating with someone at first but im starting to get used to it now!