dying

this is a random topic but is anyone else comforted by the idea of su1cide 😭💔like whenever life feels too hard or i get hit with that overwhelming feeling of loneliness its just nice to think that theres always a way out if i really cant deal with it all anymore 💀idk 80% ill never do that but fantasizing about it is how i always coped whenever i felt hopeless and it really works😃

also i never really got people who are scared of death. i would be scared obviously if it was painful but otherwise i dont really care too much when ill die😭even if itll be soon. yeah theres a lot to live for but at the same time my life kinda pointless and empty so idk, idc that much. hope my mindset changes about this later on cuz rn im fr just a lonely & anxiety riddled person who goes to school and home most of the time😔trying to change that this year tho fingers crossed. bruhh if i dont improve at all this year im kms 

anyway honestly i really hope that once you die its just nothing a black void and you 100% cease to exist. no more worries or thoughts or anything. this would be the most peaceful and freeing option i could think of. but maybe being reincarnated as a tree or something would be cool 

(also i hate it but i dont know if ill get flagged/reported for saying certain words so censoring)