bruh i lowkenuinely be talking to people now and its so weird. to have actual conversations. i still feel awkward and shy but i can have a genuine regular conversation with someone 😭😭its not a lot but whatever. theres not a lot of people in my department :( also everyone asking me if im a shy/quiet person its killing me oh my goudd 😫😩its so awkward im gonna kms. do i give off timid feral street cat vibes ugh
alsooo kinda unrelated but its so scary to try to answer specific customer questions cuz idk anything. im lucky so far cuz everyone been chill to me but there are some real customer horror stories 💀😰 even the parking lot is weird i already had some dude hassle me about trying to get my number and asking if i do various drugs ☠️
also does anyone else feel as if they dont have social anxiety sometimes. just idk i feel like i have something else too. last year in psych i remember we learned about some disorder and it was the only other time i felt like it could be something i have. think it was called type c personality disorder or something. anyway istggg bro if my mind wasnt so damn empty i wouldnt have 90% of my social anxiety. its not even i have things i want to say but cant bc of SAD i jus never have anything to say 😭😭this is why i can only talk to extroverted people bro i could just listen to someone yap for hours. sighhh i really dont know how everyone comes up with stuff to talk about. someone pls teach me this mysterious power 🙏
vro everyone person with social anxiety say that they dont know what to say 90% of the time. im pretty sure not having anything to say is also a part of sad. i used to be like this too but u get better eventually once u talk to more people. like words just naturally come out of ur mouth.
ReplyDeleteu really just talk abt whatever with ppl. idk how to give advice tho idk it just comes naturally. just say whatever bro. i actually do have advice but its probably gonna be a long list
also brah u gotta actually respond instead of just listening or else that connection not happening 🥀