today in english class we had to watch videos people made on a small list of questions. most people picked one where its essentially how high school affected you (i think).
man it was so weird to see how normal people lived their high school lives 😭 bro everyone's videos were so inspirational and idk how to explain it. like poignant but with a positive connotation. talking about how they were a nervous freshman but found their group of people and stuff and became so self assured by senior year. everyone had sooo many photos of themselves with their friends, at school or events or just anywhere. i think i have like 5 photos of at school and its just random stuff 🥲
i cant believe this is how most people experienced high school
i dont really feel jealous but its kinda sad when i think about how i made 0 friends at this damn school 💀this year i do have 1 person i sit at lunch with on certain days but i dont feel like i can really call her a real friend. kinda more like acquaintance. we arent even in the same grade either
even my brother who's a freshman effortlessly makes friends when he's kinda quiet like me too. he doesn't even want to be friends with most of them he just attracts people 😭 and my other brother is like a stereotypical ML in a manhwa bro he's so popular and all the girls have crushes on him. i dont wanna think all negative again but it truly feels like theres something inherently wrong with me sometimes💀
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ReplyDeleteey man atleast we didnt peak in highschool am i right
ReplyDeleteok but actually yeah having no friends in highschool sucks cuz thats literally the only good thing abt it
its sad but it is true that nobody gaf abt mental health and people especially hate socially anxious ppl
if u truly wanna change then u gotta do it urself im sorry gang but i got ur back if u ever need advice or anything else but probably already heard all the advice there is (its always the same but its really the only solution)
my highschool years werent great either i had a couple friends every year but we didnt really hang out or anything and i only started gaining more attraction only because i started to change myself
theres nothing wrong with u its just social anxiety scares ppl away. idk abt ur brother i think hes more talkative than you based on my interactions with him also seems more open abt his interests idk