im in college now 🥺🥺🥺i forgot about my blog ngl

 graduation was not tuff

 i cant believe its my last day as a high schooler bruh im crine 

oh my gahhhh

do i finally look like an adult. someone said they thought i was 20 😭😭😭this is the first time someone thinks im an adult omg. everyone always thinks i look 14-15 so im shocked ngl. idk maybe its just my height and how i act cuz they mentioned that i dont act like im 18 ?? 

happy 6-7 day

 6/7/26

grad cap

 chat ive been thinking about decorating my grad cap. originally i was gonna do a simple design with some rhinestones. but lowk i want to do an anj themed design 😭 that would be so fire. also wondering if people will throw their caps during graduation. how do ppl find their caps after that. or does no one care

happy june

 i cant believe its already june. we're halfway done with 2026 ⁉️its crazy to think that in another 6 months itll be winter again. and ill be living a completely different life then too. 

rr shutdown

 brahh this game i used to play all the time is shutting down tomorrow 😭😭😭i used to be addicted to ts bruh. for almost a year now i actually pretty much stopped playing since the game got bad but for the first couple of years on it, rec room was really fun overall. i met lots of cool people on that game too. mann its actually making me kinda sad that the game is shutting down forever 💔all my memories on that game bruh. theyre coming back. this must be how people felt when club penguin shut down. rip rec room. all the players are saying we're graduated from rr now and its making me feel some type of way cuz im graduating from high school soon too 💀feels like everything is ending recently 

the backrooms (2026)

 i went to the movie theater todayyy yayy. my brother wanted to watch this movie so i took the day off work (it felt so weird to not be working on a saturday). since i dont have braces anymore i got to eat popcorn!!! 

anyway idk much backrooms lore and i didnt even watch the trailer so i had no expectations. but it was very interesting. i like the liminal-ness of it all. and the grainy camera scenes. and this movie was so creepy esp some of the 'peoples' designs. it had me on edge ngl. ouhh also some of the aesthetics/compositions/camera work reminded me of severance. im still waiting for s3.. 🥲🥲anyway the movie was pretty good. the ending felt unfinished/abrupt tho

also mary (one of the main characters) reminds me of my counselor at school. im crine 

i want to watch project hail mary next. idk when ill see it tho. i tried to check out the book on libby but the wait for it is hella long 💀

 chat should i make an art account. maybe on insta

ive been wanting to post art for some years but idk i never actually did it skull emoji. idk the reason i never did was cuz i feel ambivalent about it. i hear many artists get some burnout/stress from trying to keep up with posting and getting likes or whatever. also im kinda scared of those people who will ai-ify your art 😭but i think it can be fun (maybe) tbh i feel like i will need one anyway sometime 

jumpscare

 bruh why do i scare people💀i dont even try but i scare random people at work and also my family. mostly my mom. she tells me i look like one of those korean ghosts because im pale and have long hair im crine

im not even loud or anything ig i just appear and people thought they were alone or sum so they get scared? 😭its kinda funny though when it happens lmao

yter im lowkenuinely obsessed with

 bruh i randomly came across this one youtuber a couple weeks ago (?) her channel name is marisa. ill just add her most recent vid here tho cuz shes a small youtuber still 

anyway im lowkey obsessed with her. shes kinda a girlfailure and somewhat relatable. idk shes just very honest about her struggles in life and its interesting/refreshing to hear her thoughts. i really hope her channel doesnt get taken down 😭😭 ily marisa 

random thought cuz im running out of post ideas

i love it when music gives you chills

genuinely nothing else gives me that kinda feeling. except maybe being cold but its not the same. its so peak fr ong 

Skip to Loafer

 I just finished this anime after watching for 1-2 weeks cuz one of my coworkers said it was good 😭Also random but I kept having the hardest time remembering the name of this anime I kept forgetting it I'm crine 

Anyway Skip to Loafer is basically a slice-of-life following Mitsumi, who comes from a rural area of Japan. She moves to this big school in Tokyo for hs bc she wants to be a politician and help her hometown. She meets this guy Sousuke and they become friends awwiee. And she meets other people too. Basically kinda a coming-of-age story ig.

Ngl it was pretty good. I like the characters. Mitsumi is so cute but she also feels like a real person. Also I like her character design of having smaller irises than others. STL was also genuinely funny at parts. It felt like there was kinda no plot at first but as it went on there was some mystery and intrigue and real plot points. Also like how it subverts some tropes. Its only 12 eps so pretty short but I enjoyed it. I hope s2 comes out soon 🤞🤞

random screenshots i took. its really annoying to take ss when i watch shows so i dont do it a lot unforch

fart sketches

 

recent random sketches! im planning on finishing the 2nd one later on.. drawing backgrounds & perspective is so hard 😖 

makeup

 bruh sometimes i wish i could do makeup like this

like not necessarily to look 'prettier' or whatever but makeup like this just looks so fun and expressive. and if youre fashionable and match it to your fit >>> god so peak ... i wish i could change my hair color at will and own all the clothes and do fun looks 😭

im happy

 i feel like im becoming a normal person #lowkey

today at work i actually talked to a lot of people today and had regular/long convos 😭😭🙏 a genuine miracle

bruh idk why im so avoidant and scared to approach people even if they are friendly to me but some people at work put in effort to say hi/talk to me and maybe iii can become normal someday 😃also when i see my coworkers talk to customers im amazed at how confident and knowledgeable and likeable they seem how do i talk like that fr i just do the most bare minimum customer service 💀

Song OTD

 

Today's song OTD is Wahdon by Fairuz! This song is so beautiful and ethereal omgg I love it. The singing, jazziness, instrumentals, piano, all peak 👌👌I don't usually listen to longer songs but this one is good and feels like it tells a story.

Also I was gonna make a post about this a few weeks ago but I've been trying to listen to more albums as of late. Cuz my Spotify wrapped 2025 said I listened to 3 albums or something I was like damn 💀I just listen to whatever fr, feel like I need to expand my music taste or be more conscious about it. Yeah so I've been listening to some albums idk if I should keep track of ts or not. Rn listening to Fairuz's albums yippee I also want to get into music from diff languages/cultures. 

nonsensible ramble

bruh this is something i think about sometimes but i wonder why ive never been bullied 💀cuz many quiet kids ive seen have gotten bullied to some extent. i do get comments/jokes about me being quiet/shy or telling me im so talkative in a sarcastic way but otherwise people just dont gaf about me. i think its better to be ignored than be outright bullied so im happy tho. ig this never happened to me bc im just that quiet or cuz i went to good enough schools where most people are generally nice cuz ive never seen anyone else get bullied before either. 

but looking back i feel kinda regretful bc even tho im so quiet and insignificant, sometimes people would still try to include me for no reason 😭😭like i had chances to maybe make friends even as a quiet person.. but im such a boring chud with nothing to say so nothing ever came out of it or the person would find more fun people to hang out with 

also something else i wonder. will i ever fit in anywhere💔like i dont feel any deep connection to the schools ive been to etc. bruh i dont think ive even ever had a friend group before. except in 2nd grade? im just going through life like its nothing. many times i dont even feel like a real person tbh. like whats the point of my life. even my passions are fading away. i dont think ill ever belong anywhere or to anyone😭i wish i wasnt mentally ill. how different would my life be ,,, . . what does it feel like to be a regular person bruh. these people's normal is something i can only dream of 

farting

 bruhh i feel like i havent drawn in so long 😭😭im tryna get back into sketchbook work cuz digital doesnt hit the same anymore idk 

i was gonna post something else but i completely forgot what i was gonna talk about

does anyone else like to find random websites and just take a bunch of useless quizzes to kill time lol i took a what hnk char are you bruh why did i get cinnabar