making a one-shot is so hard bruh i only have to lineart and color but its 40 pages and i got less than a week now ๐ i hate linearting i wish i could just use my sketches ๐ค i just wanna be done with ts idec about the comic anymore ๐ญ
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Today's song OTD is ใฉใใ้ใใฎ้จใฎไธญใง (In the Pouring Rain?) by Akiko Wada! This is such a beautiful song. I love how this sounds distinctly Japanese too. Love all the instruments in here.. the lyrics are sad but it sounds kinda buoyant. Also Akiko's background is really interesting and crazy wow
I HATE ECZEMA!!! ts pmo soo bad holyy. and it NEVER goes away, theres always a random flare-up bruh i dont wanna deal with this for my entire life....... it burns and itches so bad omg it feels like putting your skin on a hot stove ๐ญ and trying to fix it with lotion or whatever makes it even worse. my eczema used to be so bad and i thought it was better but it always comes back ๐ genuinely the most uncomfortable feeling to have on your skin. looks and feels so ugly and gross. why do i have so many physical and mental problems man ๐
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Today's song OTD is Mayonaka no Tennis Coat by Kingo Hamada! I love how deep and rich the instruments sound in this song! It very much gives yearning for something vibes
Today's song OTD is Dreamy by Dan Fontaine! The title already describes this song lol. Sounds like something that would play in a warmly lit cafe on a rainy night. What a peaceful song.. daydreamy type song..
Today's song OTD is the main theme of Amore Mio Aiutami! This song sounds so dreamy and beautiful... it makes me sad. Also on summer break now, it feels so weird and bittersweet this year for some reason
Today's song OTD is Ocean Bomb by babyMINT! Been listening to more Chinese music lately! I love this song; it sounds so bubbly/reverb-like idk how to explain. I love the vocal delay in it too!! And the clicky-ness. This song is so satisfying to listen to and so summery hehe
1. bad hearing, idk why but im really precious about my hearing. i never listen to loud music even if i want to. i hate places with loud music like parties!!! and also fitness places why do they blast their music so loud. just because the music is loud doesnt mean im gonna be more motivated to work out ๐ tried this one boxing place one time and omg after the class i literally couldnt hear right for almost an hour. felt like i was underwater smh my head. im so paranoid about getting hearing damage ๐ญ i dont want tinnitus or sum later down the line, now that would be hell.
2. stairs. bruh if i even stumble for even one second on the stairs my heart feels like it stops. im so scared of falling down the stairs and injuring myself in some way. like maybe i knock my teeth out ๐ญ my mom told me story once, a girl had a chopstick in her mouth while going down the stairs and fell, and the chopstick stabbed through her throat and she died ๐ญ๐ญ so many people get injured/die from stairs... its crazy......
3. eye injuries/going blind. lowkey i dont think life would be worth it if i couldnt see. i already have bad eyesight loll it makes life so annoying. people who have 20/20 vision are so blessed ๐ feel like its surprisingly easy to get an eye injury, like anything could happen.
Today's song OTD is Sugar by Mass of the Fermenting Dregs! I love the energy here. And the cover looks really yummy too
happy june yall! we're officially at the halfway mark of 2025... well tbh its not exactly half but idc. guys this is so crazy .. school is almost done.. summer will be here soon. how come the days and months go by so quickly๐one blink and the next school year will start at this rate. anyway i hope it gets warmer soon, i wanna go to the beach this month. hope june and july dont fly by too quickly
Today's song OTD is Whiplash by aespa! This song has been on my mind lately. Also I really love aespa's aesthetic, that metallic dark futuristic y2k kinda look.
I just finished watching this insane and silly show called Kantaro: The Sweet Tooth Salaryman. It's basically about this dude that decided to become a salaryman at a publishing house so he could play hooky and secretly eat various sweets after work. He posts reviews of the food on his blog, Ameblo (I think this blog exists irl too). This man loves sweets so much he genuinely starts tweaking out after trying each dessert ๐ He's very expressive. It was fun to learn about the different Japanese (and some European) foods. The close-up shots looked really good. Watching this show made me wanna go to these stores too lol. If I ever visit Japan again maybe I could...
Ok back to the show, it's so over the top and absurd lol. I love how Kantaro quotes people like Nietzsche and Winston Churchill and ties the quotes into his relationship with food ๐It's surprisingly entertaining. I kinda wish there was more on Dobashi (his coworker, she keeps trying to prove Kantaro is the one behind his blog) cuz it kept going nowhere. She seems to be a sweets fanatic too, so I think they could have fun visiting desert shops and discussing food together.
Also, surprisingly, there were a lot of English words when they could've used Japanese instead. I wonder why they did that. It was nice to try to see how much Japanese I could understand though. The show is only 12 episodes so it was easy to finish :D I wish there was a S2 so we could see the winter and spring desserts common in Japan but it's not gonna happen </3
Today's song OTD is Dream For You by ๅฎ็พๅ็ซ! This song sounds like a whirlwind of feelings I love the instruments
im not perfect at grammar myself and ill write lazily without adding the proper apostrophes, commas, or capitalization in many posts like this one but why are so many people's grammar skills in general so bad these days๐ญ the amount of people who dont know the difference between all the "theirs" and "yours" is actually insane. ive even seen adults & teachers not using the right "your" before like .. how? also the rise of "could of, should of," anything like that is absurd. it pmo fr do teenagers really read that little nowadays to not know its could've?? why are native english speakers the worst at grammar ESL people are better than y'all...
also ive been seeing this more recently, people will add a random comma after but for no reason. like "but, she didnt like it" omgg why are you adding unnecessary commas in your published writing. where did this come from?
also people who dont know the difference between:
peaked/peeked/piqued
loose/lose
bawled/balled
weary/wary
etc. it actually surprises me when i see posts online where people know the difference between all these points now ๐ please at least know the difference between the different yours and theirs im begging.... its really not that hard man you have no excuse not to know if youre a native english speaker ngl unless you have dyslexia or something
"A Midsummer Night's Dream" is lowkey the best title ive ever heard of before. it just sounds so poetic and wistful ... i need to read it sometime ngl. also since we're on the topic i love shakespeare's "sonnet 18" i havent read many of his sonnets but this one is so beautiful. i love the line "rough winds do shake the darling buds of may" it invokes such a specific and delightful imagery for me. how did this man come up with such amazing writing ...
Never gaf abt college even when other kids in middle school would have their dream college and even own merch and discuss what college they wanna go to.... college pmo actually everyone is always asking me about college IM STILL A MINOR i dont know what i wanna do for the rest of my life!! goud. it isnt even worth it like it used to be im just gonna be slaving away paying off debt for the rest of my life
Also kinda related same for school in general lowkey. Ppl always like oh each year is so different, middle school and high school are so different .. but every year since elementary school ended has felt the same to me ๐ nothing had changed at all each year... maybe its all just cuz i live such a boring and lonely life. ive never had a normal high school experience ever ๐ same for middle school for the most part too
Today's song OTD is Lucky by Lucky Twice! I love this song so much... life mantra fr. I'm so lucky lucky I'm so lovely lovely ๐ #obsessed
brah why people drive so crazy where i live.. no one uses their blinker oh my gousshh .. people always speeding too. worst part is when people turn and then when they're 90% done with the turn/merge THEN they turn on their blinker for like 1 second ๐๐ like its too late now.. smh my head. people are so impatient they try to weave through cars like crazy and chances are they dont use blinkers like you're gonna cause a crash bro!! even when im crossing a street to get to my bus stop some people just swerve around me without slowing down much while im in the middle of crossing ๐ im gonna get run over some day i swear... cant trust these roads
Today's song OTD is ็ซใฎใใฃใฝ็ฌใฎใใฃใฝ (Cat's tail, dog's tail?) by ko-ko-ya! This song is so playful and fun! Very charming and delightful. Sounds like music that'd play in the bg of a cute little animal themed mobile game
Had to write a paper about a historic event/person a while back and I chose the Holocaust/Elie Wiesel's book, Night. My teacher handed the paper back to me and she wrote in the margins that Elie spoke at MY SCHOOL in 2000. Omg the one interesting thing* that actually happened at my school, and it happened years ago... I can't even find anything about it online. She wrote he said the most important lesson for humanity was to "not stand idly by." I really wish I could've heard him speak that day ๐๐๐ It was probably such a rare and amazing experience. Elie's book was great too; I read a bunch of Holocaust memorials and wanted to write some reviews but never got around to it yet.
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*I did get to listen to a Pearl Harbor survivor that visited my school a few months ago though. It was really fascinating to learn about.
Today's song OTD is Older Girl by 1986 OMEGA TRIBE! I like the lyrics of this song. Also btw does anyone else hate when comments are almost always disabled on songs unless you look for a reupload with like 32 views... i wanna hear what other people think about the song
brah this song kept playing on youtube videos and now its stuck in my head ๐ญ idk if i hate it or not.. "haii! nani ga suki? chokominto yori mo a-na-ta" keeps repeating in my mind omggf
Today's song OTD is Ladyfingers by Herb Alpert! Why is it so hard to find light and refreshing songs like this
Today's song OTD is Falling Asleep Under the Starts by why this ? This song is so bouncy and light and the piano is really nice! Sounds kinda jazzy too which I love. Ending is great too but it cuts off kinda weird ๐ญ Sounds too sudden. Discovered this song because of this YTer ggg. and I love their playlists ๐ Really good for doing homework. I'm such a sucker for the cafe aesthetic in their thumbnails too
1. pores, especially larger pores i dont think they look ugly. they add character to your face and look interesting ngl. i remember in 4th grade there was this girl i was kinda friends with. she had visible pores and i thought they were soo beautiful i really admired them and wanted pores just like hers ๐ญ
2. i think monolids are really underrated. so many people feel pressured to get surgery for double eyelids especially in east asia๐ double eyelids arent the only pretty eye shape ๐ญ i think having monolids/epicanthal folds make your eyes pop out more and look more 3 dimensional. one of, if not my favorite eyes shapes fr. also idk what its called but i noticed in some east asian eyes there is this triangle-shaped part of skin at outer corner. its a little pinker and kinda shimmers and catches the light in a really beautiful way. obsessed with this feature its sooo striking and gorgeous i love it ๐ฉi love eyes so much best feature of all time
3. broad shoulders, women always hating on their broad shoulders but i think it can look really elegant/graceful and strong. having broader shoulders doesnt immediately make you look masculine!! you can still look pretty and feminine!
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Today's song OTD is One Day by Omoinotake! This song is so painful ngl. When is "someday"? ๐
like hey no i dont want to dream about constantly being chased and hiding and always being on edge and waking up with my heart racing. i dont want to dream about my family members being brutally killed and screaming my heart out while sobbing bruh. i cant watch even a slightly gore-y scene irl man why ๐ญ๐ญ thanks anxiety for making my sleep miserable too ๐ some of my dreams are genuinely so disturbing. i can literally remember only 1 peaceful dream ive had in my life .. like a true peaceful dream no drama/real plot or evil people just nature and warm sunlight and cats ๐๐
Today's song OTD is Something's Wrong with the Morning by Margo! Idk why the beginning sounded kinda French to me. I listened to this a long time ago but don't even remember ToT It's fun to look back at old songs tho
Guys I lied last time when I said I wasn't gonna finish WK... couldn't resist and bought 1 more month so I could complete it. I reached level 60 5 days ago but finally finished learning all my vocab and stuff today. Man it's so weird... I'm never gonna learn any new lessons from that app ever again. I'm so glad I won't have to do over 400+ reviews everyday now. Overall it was really fun and addicting and I learned a lot easily ๐ I probably spent at least 400 hours on this thing. Also for the amount I paid to use it I feel like they should lock the app at the level you're at when the subscription expires instead of locking you at lvl 3๐ญOr give it for free for lvl 60 users smh my head. So that you can still practice kanji/vocab. Anyway I'm gonna miss WaniKani ngl. I was so consistent with it. Truly amazing.
Today's song OTD is ๆใใฆๆใใฆๆใใฆ (Love me, Love me, Love me) covered by Ado! How can her voice sound so angelic and so powerful at the same time ๐ญ I love the screaming I love songs where women scream fr. Loveee the vocal growl/fry sm. Also it's insane how her live sounds so much better than the studio version. Sooo peakkk this is my repeat song rn.
Decided to start a gratitude journal cuz apparently it’s really good for you and for happiness y'know. So I finally finished yesterday yayy and it kinda worked I think. Didn't get life changing results but it helped. It made me feel less annoyed at things and enjoy doing stuff I hated more and be slightly happier. I think it also helped with anxiety a little and I became slightly more social. It also helped me appreciate things more. Cuz even if I had a bad day I could still look back and find a few things I was grateful for, and that made the day seem less bad. Idk if I'll continue doing this maybe 3 more weeks to see if it improves my mental health any further
Today's song OTD is Tell Me by FIFTY FIFTY! Listening to my old liked songs again. Happy music happy life ๐This song feels like a montage of nice memories with friends
Does anyone else think it's too late for them ๐ญ like there's suddenly so many things I wanna do/learn but idk I feel like I'm starting too late. Which is kinda crazy bc I'm not even an adult yet. But lots of people that become good at something and do their passion professionally start so early like professional figure skaters start at 4 years old and if you start too late you can never realize your full potential. Wish I could restart my life sometimes ๐ I still got time but I'll never get my wasted years back ๐ญ
had a dream about anj the other day..... i was looking on this website and there was a list of most popular manga. and anj was in the #1 spot. also there were like 5 official english translation books and i was so excited & wanted to read them ๐ dont remember the rest of the dream.. i should start writing my dreams down again so my memory gets better. also whenever i have an anj-related dream its so random/weird for some reason.
also since we're on the topic i just found out that all of ๅฐพ่คใคใตใช's anj songs got removed from spotify ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐ omg NOOOOO why does this always happen man. now i have to scour the internet to find these songs again. kms.
Today's song OTD is ใใกใฅใ (Kiss) by BUCK-TICK! Been obsessed with this song. The part at 2:07 insane so good so catchy
Today's song OTD is ๆตๆ by MUCC! This song sounds like something you'd listen to right before you die.
Today's song OTD is ใใชใกใญ (Sonatine) by Tempalay. Goud that intro is so funky and cool. It's bizarreness draws you in. And this song is very nostalgic and light/playful. It has an undercurrent of heaviness/melancholy too. Feels like the fleetingness of youth. Also that MV is crazy I don't usually care abt watching the MVs but this one had me hooked. It's actually really depressing and surreal.
I think my favorite media are the ones that challenged my beliefs in some way…. I love seeing things from another person's perspective, experiencing their passion and emotions anew for whatever topic through their eyes. I love being inspired by such things and being able to look at something in a new light and with a more open mind. :D
Bro istg literally cant draw anything on digital anymore.... its not like i dont have art ideas either i just cant draw....... So i tried drawing on traditional and suddenly i can kinda draw again ๐ญ ngl missed traditional art... its so fun. Actually maybe this happened bc i stopped drawing in sketchbooks. I can never give up paper and pencil ๐ฅ
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Today's song OTD is Mexican Dream by Piero Piccioni! So calming... so tranquil.. this song is like the fleeting beauty of sun rays coming through a forest canopy
I finally bought a grammar book for Japanese!! Feel like I only stay consistent to a resource if I spend money on it ๐ Idk or the free options just aren't my style </3. But now I can finally study...... the most important part of language learning ๐ญ๐ญ I'm so excited to be able to understand sentences and not guess based off kanji lolll. Also love the smell of a fresh new book.. simply amazing.
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| me fr except i like learning kanji :D (most of the time) |
Started an anime ๐คฏeveryone always telling me to watch anime to get better at Japanese ok. I've been wanting to watch Saint Young Men anyway. It looks like such a cute and funny show ☺️ Plus I've never seen this concept before esp in an anime.. Jesus and Buddha.. crazy... I just need something lighthearted after WLGYT. Only watched 1 ep cuz I got no time but it seems pretty entertaining.
Today's song OTD is by YeYe and Ginger Root - ๆฐด้ขใซ、ใขใคใน (Ice on the Surface of the Water?) Just a chill song fr.
Why is it that every teacher makes you use insta when there's a social media related project ๐ and they expect you to know all the nuances of insta too ๐ญ it's so annoying bro not everyone has the dang app.. it's so much trouble to install then log in cuz school internet sucks. I thought schools were against social media now anyway why can't we just research online.
Today's song OTD is Masquerade by Hitomi Kuroishi! This song is so soft and ethereal and wistful... Omg Hitomi's voice sounds so balmy and smooth here it's insane. Also love the purple lighting and outfit in the vid.
I finally finished WLGYT this morning!! Holyyyy it was actually so good, I didn't know what to expect going in bc I just decided to watch it on a whim one night. But omg.,, I don't think I've ever cried so much over a piece of media before๐ญLiterally every single episode got me tearing up crying my eyes out. It's a simple yet complexed and a beautiful story with amazing acting. The whole thing felt so raw and real. Watching this was such an experience can't even put it into words...
Loved all the themes of resilience despite adversity, poverty, love, the burdens of parenthood, the role of women changing in society, personal growth, how fleeting life is etc through multiple generations. Ngl I didn't think I'd like that WLGYT would span multiple generations, but it actually worked out well and I didn't mind it in the end.
Also this kdrama got me thinking about my parents and how they're getting slowly older .. and what they had to go through in their own lives. Idk it's really depressing to think about. The stuff about parents/parenthood got me crying the most. I've never wanted kids before but this got me thinking about it a little... how different a life with kids would be.
Also also, I think WLGYT hit me emotionally just as much as or more than Ashita no Joe did ๐คฏ They're not super similar exactly, but it gave me the same feelings as AnJ did. The more I think about the ending the sadder/more bittersweet I feel omg.... just like AnJ fr.
WLGYT did feel a little slow/boring at some times (which is why it took me a while to finish), but it's a slice of life and it always managed to pick back up after a while. It's better if you don't binge it probably. But still, this is a 10/10. Best kdrama I've ever watched for sure. Idk if anything like this could be made again. I wish I could watch this all over again, already miss the story and characters and it hasn't even been a full day </3 My eyes were swollen from crying after finishing the last ep lol
just found out that im about 3 pounds away from being in the 'severely underweight' category ๐ youve gotta be kidding me bro. been trying to gain weight for the past few months but it always drops back down to where i started ๐ญ tired of being like a chopstick ๐ and being cold all the time. guess i just have to work out a lot more๐๐๐
Today's song OTD is Easy Lover by Philip Bailey and Phil Collins! Fell in love with this song the instant it started omg. That opening is insane. Love 80's music so much. This also sounds kinda nostalgic/deja vu at times maybe I've heard it before ..
Today's song OTD is Talk that Talk by TWICE! Listening to more kpop again. I've heard this song before but for some reason, listening to it today, it just hit different. Tell me what you wantt tell me what you need
Today's song OTD is Kiss a Kitty by CHUU! I really love this style of editing for the visuals :) Had this song on loop for the past day. It's really catchy
bruh idk what happened but ever since i did that noriko sketch from march i havent been able to draw anything well except for 1 thing ๐ literally tried drawing 25+ different things but only managed to finish one after a while. what happened ๐ญ maybe going back to traditional art and studies will fix me ๐ฃ
heres the thing i did btw. drew my old ocs from this post: Mon Blog: Search results for oc concept ngl kinda love these 2 again, think i have a couple storyline drafts for them too..? man i always talk abt writing stories for my ocs and then abandon them a few days later ๐
Today's song OTD is Capricorn Woman by Naomi Akimoto! This is a really solid song, it sounds kinda familiar and catchy. That random interlude halfway through was unexpected. Also really love the cover in this vid, colors, lighting, pose, hair, everything is stunning.
does anyone else like just plain rice. like plain white rice. omg its soo good. i could eat an entire bowl of just plain rice or rice in hot water. freshly cooked rice is so fragrant and has such a specific smell, its really warm and comforting. my friends used to ask me why i ate plain rice and not with kimchi or something, but rice by itself is just really good and has its own flavor smh my head. its just really satisfying to eat rice in general๐คคtheres gotta be others who like this
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Hi guyss hi my 1 fan I'm finally back! I was gonna post earlier but I got sick AGAIN ๐ I swear bruh I've been sick so many times this year already. Anyway, today's song OTD is sign 0 by Chouchou! Those first new notes of the piano made me think this was a Houseki no Kuni song ngl. But this song is so beautiful, wistful, soft, and tristful. It feels very comforting in a way. This is also one of those songs where it really makes me wanna animate to it..... omg I need to learn animation someday fr
bro omg i didnt even realize i havent posted in 4 days thought it was like 1 or 2 .... tbh been really losing interest in everything so i dont have anything to post. idk when ill be posting regularly again with things that arent song otd ๐ฉ๐ฉso my blog will prob be pretty empty for a bit
Ok technically this is a playlist but I don't wanna look for a song rn so.... Lately I've been lowkey obsessed with this playlist it's soo good to just play in the background while cooking/cleaning/whatever; it has the perfect amount of energy to keep you motivated while doing boring chores ๐คฉ
Today's song OTD is 12ๆใฎ้จ (December Rain) by Yumi Arai! Someday time will be a generous friend ๐
Today's song OTD is La Vie En Rose by Edith Piaf! This sounds sooo old romantic, a song that would play in a move like that Up sequence or something... it sounds so familiar too. This song is just so beautiful....
Also unrelated but it's so hard to find music now. I never know what I wanna listen to :(
Omg guyss I just noticed but I've been using WaniKani for a year now omg.... technically a year and 4 days now but whatever. It's kinda insane to think about... starting off not knowing anything and now I'm at level 47 ๐ฅณ I hope to get to lvl 51 before my subscription finally expires. I'll never get to lvl 60 prob bc it's too expensive to pay again but thats okay. This app is so well made and addicting, so happy I've been able to power thru all the levels with relative ease๐ชNow, thanks to WK I can recognize and read words like hepatitis and naval fleet in Japanese!!! ๐ฉท☺️
I'm back... back to posting songs n stuff again
Today's song OTD is ๆธ่ฐทใง5ๆ (5 o'clock in Shibuya) by Masayuki Suzuki ＆Momoko Kikuchi!
ๆธ่ฐทใง5ๆ - song and lyrics by Maki Nomiya, Clรฉmentine, Masayuki Suzuki | Spotify THIS VERSION HAS FRENCH IN IT!! I've never heard of a French-Japanese combo omg it was so unexpected
Today's song is La Femme ร la Peau Bleue by Vendredi sur Mer! Haven't post a French song in a while.. used to listen to Vendredi a lot last spring/summer. I remember I tried to make fanart kinda of this song before but it failed lol
Today's song OTD is you can fly by Naoko Gushima! I love how all the instruments harmonize and I love Nakoko's singing ๐this song sounds so gentle and encouraging
Today's song OTD is Good Friend by Momoko Kikuchi! The very beginning sounds like a beach song for a cartoon omg
Today's song is With You by Seiko Matsuda! This song is so spring-like .. it's so romantic and bright .. feels like walking with someone you love along a bridge during cherry blossom season.. seeing the bright blue sky and sparkling water
Just read this short 11-chapter psychological horror manga on a whim and finished it in one setting. It's about this girl, Alice, who wakes up in a mysterious mansion. And she has to get through hundreds of rooms to escape. Ok first of all omg the art is sooo intricate, spectacular and amazing, many panels look like they took hours to draw ngl. I especially really liked the chapter with the bird. Anyway this manga was pretty trippy and sometimes confusing, not a lot is explained until the end so it leaves you with a lot of questions throughout the story. Alice is not a very reactional character for most of the manga, so you wonder why she so desperately wants to leave the mansion. Idk how to feel abt the ending itself, but it explains a lot abt Alice.. it was def a twist.
I guess Bibliomania tries to show how greed/unlimited wants/desire corrupts people and leaves you feeling forever unfulfilled. Wish it was more popular so I could read more ppl's interpretations on it haha
my head, throat, stomach, back, even my bones hurt wth... i feel like a decrepit old man that hasnt exercised since he was 30 :(((
wanted to draw and post a lot on my blog but i couldnt ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญhate being sick smh my head
forgot i used to post old art so heres some:
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| this shocked me bc i had no recollection of drawing this at first and it looks like nothing ive ever done b4 |
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| omg suki.. i remember struggling so hard with the bg ngl seeing this makes me wanna draw her again |
Today's song OTD is STARDUST NIGHT by JADOES! I love this song, it's so upbeat and I love the depth in it. Stardust Night! ๅใฎ! It's So Light! ้ฆใ
Today's song OTD is ใทใซใจใใ・ใญใใณใน (Silhouette Romance) by Junko Ohashi! This song sounds so familiar, prob heard it before idk. Also off topic but why is it so hard to understand English -> Japanese loanwords at times ๐๐ญLiterally could not figure out ใทใซใจใใ meant silhouette omg. It would just be easier for me to recognize the actual Japanese word for it in some cases..
Today's song is ใพใกใถใ (Ambush?) by Hitomi Ishikawa! I love the melody.. this song is so dreamy
Today's song OTD is Put Your Head on my Shoulder by Paul Anka!
Haven’t done any sort of review in a long time so I’ll do some on the 3 latest books I’ve read:
Forgive Me, Leonard Peacock by Matthew Quick. Synopsis: On Lonard Peacock's birthday, Leonard Peacock plans on killing his former best friend with a P-38, which he intends to leave as a gift, along with four others, to his true friends, as a way of telling them it wasn't their fault. Then he plans on killing himself, too.
This book’s protag reminded me a lot of Holden from Catcher in the Rye. I feel as if many lines from it sound like it could’ve come from CITR ngl. The letters incorporated into the book were a little confusing at first, but ig it adds to the book. Didn’t really like how the author kept putting some of the sentences into little fragments that spanned multiple lines of the page, like a poem almost- it happened so many times that the intended dramatism of it felt almost nonexistent. I really liked Leonard’s Holocaust teacher, Herr Silverman. Leonard himself was so… he’s a hypocrite and kinda pretentious, looks down on other people. Again, reminds me of Holden. I think maybe there were too many different elements crammed into this book, so some things felt a little underdeveloped. Idk I read this first so I don't remember the fine details. 6.5/10.
Bang by Barry Lyga. “Sebastian Cody did something horrible, something no one—not even Sebastian himself—can forgive. At the age of four, he accidentally shot and killed his infant sister with his father’s gun. Now, ten years later, Sebastian has lived with the guilt and horror for his entire life. With his best friend away for the summer, Sebastian has only a new friend—Aneesa—to distract him from his darkest thoughts. But even this relationship cannot blunt the pain of his past. Because Sebastian knows exactly how to rectify his childhood crime and sanctify his past.”
The premise seemed interesting and I loved the writing style of this novel (also liked how Sebastian had a large lexicon). Sebastian and Aneesa felt like real characters. It was fun to read about their pizza channel and food descriptions! Those lighthearted scenes helped undercut the more tragic parts of the novel.
The last third or so of the novel got me tearing up. I also liked the twist near the end of it, didn’t expect that at all. The actual ending wasn’t very memorable for me, but it was still enjoyable to read. Oh, and I liked how the author didn’t make this into a romance book! Love the message of how just because a boy and girl become friends doesn’t mean they inevitably have to fall in love with each other ๐ฏ 8/10 overall.
The Bunker Diary by Kevin Brooks. Read this one in a few hours the other day. It’s very intense. The writing style was simple and punchy. Jenny and Russell were my favorite characters :)
“People are really quite simple, and they have simple needs. Food, water, light, space, privacy. Maybe a small measure of dignity. A bit of freedom. What happens when someone simply takes all that away?”
This book is about this boy named Linus, who gets kidnapped into a bunker. Over time, 5 other people join him. To sum it up, they basically spend the entire time suffering and trying to escape the bunker. This book is just depressing ngl, especially the ending. There was something I missed about the ending until another person pointed it out and omg ๐ญ the more I think about it the worse it gets.
Anyway, throughout the book I was waiting for more information about the man that captured these people, but we never got to know anything about him. Also, it really annoyed me how his name/pronouns were capitalized for no reason. Maybe “The Man Upstairs” is a commentary about God but I hated it ๐ญ I didn’t really get any takeaway from this except that “life is unfair” … it’s just a really bleak book about people getting tortured. 6/10.
Just realizing I’ve read a lot of books with more depressing themes/mental illness in February ๐ these 3 were the most intense ones. Does anyone have any good book recs that aren’t super bleak… I’m running out of books I fear.
Today's song OTD is APT. by ROSÉ and Bruno Mars! Cuz I'm obsesseddddd! Idk why, I've listened to this song many times before but for some reason I just suddenly got obsessed with APT. Also this fan animation is so cute and well-made
idk why but akina's teen-age blue has been playing in my mind for the past couple day so many times. literally cant get it out of my head. that song is literally perfection ... my favorite akina song perhaps. its so good to listen to esp when ur feeling down. and its my #1 song on spotify now ๐ญ
also been craving listening to apt. for the whole day today what is happening
think maybe my obsession for music is coming back. it hasnt been the same since i took that little music break a while back ngl
ngl february was so bad.... worst month ever. last day ended off horribly too bruh i havent really cried in months (?) before this ๐ง i thought 2025 would be better than 2024 wth ๐ญ๐ญ
its march now tho that means spring is pretty much here! then summer! i cant wait to not be cold all the time ๐☺️
It's Marchhhh!!!!! Happy March everyone! ๐Today's song OTD is Spring by Ella Fitzgerald! ๐ทThe ending of this song is so beautiful...
making a one-shot is so hard bruh i only have to lineart and color but its 40 pages and i got less than a week now ๐ i hate linearting i wi...
